Dear Carter,
Man, am I glad to see 2010 go. It started out all nice and sweet, and then about halfway through turned into the worst year of my life. 2011 had better treat me a little nicer! I'm excited and scared to see what the new year will bring. I know that it will bring a lot of firsts with it....your first birthday that we will celebrate without you, the first anniversary of the day you died. I barely survived the first Christmas without you, so to say that I'm not scared is a complete lie, but this is the path that I must walk now. Although I know that the pain will never go away, I'm hopeful that each step will get a little easier.
On New Years Eve, we kept everything pretty low key. We decided to welcome 2011 by staying at home and playing video games as a family. Our dear friends, The Travis' came over for a quick visit. It was a lot of fun! Daddy took an air horn outside to blow at Midnight which startled Jovie, so it took a little more convincing to get her to blow it.
We have started back into our normal routine after the Christmas vacation. I really miss being able to just hang out with your brother and sister, but I can tell that they were ready to be back at school. They are both learning new things so quickly, and it's fun to watch....especially when they start to ask me questions about God, Jesus, and where you are. I can see their faith growing before my eyes, and I know that you definitely had a part in that. Yet another thing to thank you for!
I love you my little sweetie. Have a Happy New Year!
January 4, 2011
December 31, 2010
Happy Birthday Daddy
Dear Carter,
It was Daddy's birthday on the 21st. He almost didn't make it home in time for it because of the weather. Jovie and I made him peanut butter bars since he's not so much a fan of cake, and a lot of the family came over to wish him a great day. Happy Birthday sweetie! Here's to hoping your 34th year is much better than your 33rd!
It was Daddy's birthday on the 21st. He almost didn't make it home in time for it because of the weather. Jovie and I made him peanut butter bars since he's not so much a fan of cake, and a lot of the family came over to wish him a great day. Happy Birthday sweetie! Here's to hoping your 34th year is much better than your 33rd!
December 30, 2010
Christmas Day
Dear Carter,
See, I'm almost caught up now. Your brother and sister were so excited for Christmas morning, and they got SO spoiled. I guess that Santa figured that they deserved a little spoiling after the year they had. There's Ajax again. Always sneaking his way in!
Momma and Dadda got spoiled too, but all we really wanted was you. We spent the day at home, and your grandparents all came over throughout the day. Mikey and Jovie had fun playing with all of their new toys.
See, I'm almost caught up now. Your brother and sister were so excited for Christmas morning, and they got SO spoiled. I guess that Santa figured that they deserved a little spoiling after the year they had. There's Ajax again. Always sneaking his way in!
Momma and Dadda got spoiled too, but all we really wanted was you. We spent the day at home, and your grandparents all came over throughout the day. Mikey and Jovie had fun playing with all of their new toys.We love you so much little sweetie! I'm sure that your Christmas celebration was unbelievable....I can't even comprehend. We miss you so much, and can't wait until the holiday when we can be with you again. Merry Christmas baby boy.
Christmas Eve
Dear Carter,
Christmas Eve was most definitely the hardest part of this holiday for me. I'm so happy that you get to be with Jesus on his birthday, and can't even imagine what it must be like to be in Heaven for such a celebration, BUT I'm still selfish and want you here with us. We got all ready for Christmas Eve mass, and headed out to visit your grave on the way there. 
You had a lot of little decorations up there. I don't even know where some of them came from. It makes me so happy to know that people hadn't forgotten about you. 
The mass was simply stunning, and Mikey and Jovie were perfect angels through the whole thing. I love our church....especially at Christmas time. Being there is emotional when I think about your funeral, but on the other hand it makes me feel closer to you.
You had a lot of little decorations up there. I don't even know where some of them came from. It makes me so happy to know that people hadn't forgotten about you. 
The mass was simply stunning, and Mikey and Jovie were perfect angels through the whole thing. I love our church....especially at Christmas time. Being there is emotional when I think about your funeral, but on the other hand it makes me feel closer to you.Afterward, we went over to the Miller's for our family Christmas party where Mikey and Jovie got spoiled!
We got home pretty late, but didn't forget to put out the cookies for Santa. Ajax was excited for Santa Paws to come, and had to weasel his way into the kids' picture (and several on Christmas Day too....what is with this dog?!).
We got home pretty late, but didn't forget to put out the cookies for Santa. Ajax was excited for Santa Paws to come, and had to weasel his way into the kids' picture (and several on Christmas Day too....what is with this dog?!).Santa Claus
Dear Carter,
We decided to attend the children's Christmas party at church this year. It was a little hard to see all of the young babies there....it made us miss you even more. They started off with a children's play of the nativity. Mikey and Jovie were both asked to participate as ponies, but only Jovie dared to do it. That's our girl! She did look quite nervous though. She had a little pony tail pinned to her skirt which you can see in the next picture below. Sooo cute!
Afterward, Papa Mouse read them Twas' The Night Before Christmas, and then the big man Santa made his appearance.
Your brother and sister both sat on his lap and got some treats. It was a pretty exciting time. Jovie keeps asking me tons of questions about Santa, but the only question Mikey had for me was wondering if he would leave something for your grave in your stocking. What a sweet boy...always looking out for his brother and sister.
We decided to attend the children's Christmas party at church this year. It was a little hard to see all of the young babies there....it made us miss you even more. They started off with a children's play of the nativity. Mikey and Jovie were both asked to participate as ponies, but only Jovie dared to do it. That's our girl! She did look quite nervous though. She had a little pony tail pinned to her skirt which you can see in the next picture below. Sooo cute!
Afterward, Papa Mouse read them Twas' The Night Before Christmas, and then the big man Santa made his appearance.
Your brother and sister both sat on his lap and got some treats. It was a pretty exciting time. Jovie keeps asking me tons of questions about Santa, but the only question Mikey had for me was wondering if he would leave something for your grave in your stocking. What a sweet boy...always looking out for his brother and sister.
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