June 28, 2010

Your Funeral

Dear Carter,
Our very sweet neighbor came over the other day to tell us that we could clip any of her roses, at any time to take up to your grave. We took her up on the offer, and Jovie chose one rose of every color for your first bouquet. There it is sitting right in front of your butterfly.
I finally met up with your Aunt April today and got the pictures from your funeral. It's bittersweet to look at these. It comforts me to see how many people were there to lay you to rest, but of course it brings back memories that have a sharp pain.
Here is a picture of your name spelled out with our favorite pictures. This was all your Daddy's idea, and I must say I'm so glad that he came up with it. We got a ton of comments on how nice it was to see your face in so many ways.
Here are some pictures of the photos we displayed. The one on the right was a video slideshow.

I thought this arrangement was quite fitting. It said "The Little Engine That Could". It was easy to think of you saying the phrase "I think I can..."Here is the little wooden casket we picked out for you. Luckily it left plenty of room at the bottom since your brother, sister, and cousin wanted to send you with a few toys.
Your Grandpa, Mikey, Uncle TJ, Uncle Marty, Cousin Justin, and Uncle Justin were your pall bearers. They did a great job, and they all looked so handsome.You are buried right next to your Grandpa Mike. You'd better take good care of him baby boy!We sent some balloons straight up to heaven. Jovie and Mikey were so excited that you would get to play with them.I took your brother and sister to the splashpad today. I'll tell you all about the butterfly there tomorrow.
I love you so very much baby boy. My heart aches to hold you, or to at least kiss my favorite spot on your cheek.

10 comments:

The Fluck Family said...

**hugs**

Phyllis said...

oh gosh, crying Heather. i can't imagine how painful this was and is for you. I think of you often and pray that you continue to have the strength to put one foot in front of the other. Not a fun way to live, but hoping those steps get a little bit easier as time goes on. Thank you for sharing your letters to Carter.

Jessica said...

It brings smiles through my tears to read how inocent your children are to all this, sending the balloons up to heaven and all. Sweet innocence. Thank you for being strong even when I know you dont want to you are. You too are an amazing gift to so many of us who are mother's to special needc children. Blessings XOXO

Michelle said...

Sending you hugs and prayers.

Lacey said...

I hope you are all doing ok. I'm sorry I've been such a horrible friend lately! Those pictures are beautiful, and I'm so upset that I missed the funeral.

Amy Flege said...

many hugs and prayers!

ANewKindOfPerfect said...

Oh my gosh ... the pictures have me in tears. I cannot even imagine. :(

I love the photos done in the letters of his name, that was a gret idea.

Jhari said...

I prayed for you and your family Heather during our pilgrimage last week. Sending you hugs again and again.

Jenn said...

So much love coming your way! You are missed Carter Jay!

Michelle said...

Sending you all many hugs and prayers..xoxo