They just donated a Christmas tree for Carter!!!
I went in there a few weeks ago with a flyer that explained what we were doing for Carter. A nice man named Trent told me that he'd submit the paperwork and see what happens. Well, today, I went and picked up the tree. When I went to the front desk to let them know that I was there, an employee there wanted to know more about Carter. She asked if he was my son. She was very sweet in the questions she asked, and once again I felt my heart swell with pride.
YES! Carter is MY son, and I have no idea why he picked me, or how I got to be so lucky. He was the most amazing boy, and YES! I AM his mommy. See, now the tears are falling again, because I truly do feel that....I feel blessed that I got to be his mommy. Nobody else in the world knows what it was like to be part of something so special. Nobody else in the world knows what it was like to be Carter's mommy. Why me? I'll never know, but I do know that I am beyond thankful to him for choosing me, and to God for giving me such a precious gift.
I must admit that there are times when I feel the "why me", "why him", and "why us". I get angry that for whatever reason he was called away from us so soon, but I try....I try so hard to focus on the blessing that we were given. Today started out as a "why me" day, but after this tree was given to us, I'm now back to the "I'm so lucky" day. Because I really am.....lucky.