As I was taking your sister to dance class tonight, I looked into the sky to see this HUGE moon. Now, it may not seem that huge in my crazy out of the car windo cell phone picture, but trust me when I say that it was quite impressive. Jovie and I were talking about the way it looked, and about how God had made such pretty things to look at.
When she came out of dance class, the first thing she did was look for the giant moon. By that time it was much smaller, and she was a bit disappointed. We got into the car, and the fabulous song, Starry Night, by Chris August.
In case you don't know it, here are the lyrics...
"I'm giving my life to the only one who makes the moon reflect the sun...
Every Starry Night, that was His design
I'm giving my life to the only Son who was, and is, and yet to come
Let the praises ring, cause he is everything"
I mean seriously, could we have heard a more perfect song?? As you know baby boy, these last few days have been difficult for me. Wow, I guess it's been more than the last few days, but the last few have been exceptionally difficult.
Your brother and sister have been having a tough time, and have been asking me a lot of really tough questions. I've been finding myself feeling sorry that they have to even think about these things at such a young age. I find myself worrying about them, and how this will shape their faith. But last night I was reminded by my very wise friend that God is going to take care of them, and He will guard their hearts.
And for some reason, I feel as though this moon and this song coming on were no coincidence. I feel as though He is telling me to hand it over to Him. That He is in control.
I knew this all along, but it seems as though at times I tend to forget it. So, here I am, handing it over to Him again.
And we'll see where it leads.
One last thing my sweet little guy, today is the national Spread The Word To End The Word campaign. I need to mention it in my blog post as I have every year since you were here. Here is what I wrote on your Facebook page. I think it says it all!
Such a busy day around here, and I *almost* missed the Official Spread The Word To End The Word day. Shame on me!! So here goes my plea for stopping the use of the word "retarded". When you say "I'm just being retarded" for doing something stupid, I hear "I'm just being Carter.". When you say "This pen is retarded", I hear "This pen is Carter." I KNOW that this is a word that a lot of people grew ...up using, and that you don't mean it "in that way", but that is the way that I hear it. So please, choose a different word....like "ridiculous" because that one is less likely to send a dagger into my heart. Thank you so much to all of our friends and family who have taken this word out of their vocabulary, and also to all of the others who are really trying. I'll admit that I wasn't even aware that this word was offensive until I had my sweet baby boy. ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥