Happy New Year!

Dear Carter,
Man, am I glad to see 2010 go. It started out all nice and sweet, and then about halfway through turned into the worst year of my life. 2011 had better treat me a little nicer! I'm excited and scared to see what the new year will bring. I know that it will bring a lot of firsts with it....your first birthday that we will celebrate without you, the first anniversary of the day you died. I barely survived the first Christmas without you, so to say that I'm not scared is a complete lie, but this is the path that I must walk now. Although I know that the pain will never go away, I'm hopeful that each step will get a little easier.

On New Years Eve, we kept everything pretty low key. We decided to welcome 2011 by staying at home and playing video games as a family. Our dear friends, The Travis' came over for a quick visit. It was a lot of fun! Daddy took an air horn outside to blow at Midnight which startled Jovie, so it took a little more convincing to get her to blow it.

We have started back into our normal routine after the Christmas vacation. I really miss being able to just hang out with your brother and sister, but I can tell that they were ready to be back at school. They are both learning new things so quickly, and it's fun to watch....especially when they start to ask me questions about God, Jesus, and where you are. I can see their faith growing before my eyes, and I know that you definitely had a part in that. Yet another thing to thank you for!

I love you my little sweetie. Have a Happy New Year!