April 21, 2011

Where Did It End?

Dear Carter,

Well, I think that your blog is finally looking the way I wanted it to. There are a few more changes I'd like to make, but none of those will do us any good if I don't post more often.

I'm trying to remember where I left off on my alphabet challenge. I think that it's time for the letter "O"...if not, well then...that's too bad because that's where I'm starting again.

O is for One.

It seems like a simple word, but to me it holds so much meaning.

This word that symbolizes so many things in your short little life. More than I know I can think to list right now.

You only had one birthday.
We only got one of each holiday with you at home.
You were only one year old.
There were so many things that we only got to do one time together.
In one moment you were here, and in the next you were in Heaven.

I now have one child in Heaven.

I can't go one second without missing you with all of my heart.

One. It just doesn't seem like enough. I wanted one hundred of those moments,
but I only got one.
And really, honestly, I'm thankful for those "ones", but I really REALLY wish that we would have had one hundred of them.

Love you and miss you baby boy.


Kristin said...

Love the new look!

Phyllis said...

love the new look, I have been meaning to do the tab thing too but haven't had time.

Last night when I put on the kids radio at bedtime, that country song, "One More Day" came on. It made me think of you and your Carter.