February 7, 2012

Sick And Tired

Dear Carter,

I'm sorry that I've neglected your blog once again.  The good news is that I got Carter's Hope up and looking the way I finally wanted it.  I worked on it a lot over the weekend, and finally feel comfortable with the way it looks and runs.  Hopefully it will continue to grow! 

I've felt a little bit of jealousy these past couple of days.  It seems as though a LOT of people I know are either announcing that they are pregnant, or are having their babies. Don't get me wrong, I am THRILLED for each and every one of them, but at the same time, I am kind of wishing that I could experience that again with you. It takes me back to the last time that I had those moments, and the first time that I got to hold your hand.

Awwwwww, it is an adorable hand though, isn't it??  Especially with your long fingers.  I wish that I could somehow transport myself back to that time and feel that tiny hand wrapped around my finger again, but all I have are the memories of those moments.

Anyway, back to what we've been up to. We didn't do a whole lot for the Supebowl...just made some yummy food and hung out at home.  I haven't been feeling very well these last couple of weeks.  I mostly just feel like I have a head cold that doesn't want to leave.  If I don't start feeling better soon, I may have to just bite the bullet and go see a doctor.  I am feeling an improvement over yesterday, so hopefully I'm on the mend now.

We have a very important event coming up....your big sister is turning six!  I can't believe it.  It seems as though it's been made even more real over the last couple of days with finding her first loose tooth.  The baby girl is growing up!  No more of the finger sucking days!

I miss you my little sweetie, and feel the weight of your upcoming birthday.  I still find it hard to believe that you would be three!


Lacey said...

Wow that boy does have long fingers!
Birthdays must be the hardest, I can't imagine. I swear this horrible friend is going to do a post for the new blog!

lila said...

I thought about you last night as I rubbed the inside of my baby's hand while he fell asleep and I wished with all my heart I could take that moment away from me for a few minutes and give it to you and Carter.
I just am so in awe of your strength and capacity to move forward without moving on. You are an amazing inspiration to every mom.
Thank you!

Colleen said...

I love the new look for Carter's Hope. You are definitely an inspiring Mama and Carter would be so proud!