September 5, 2011

The Good Cry

Dear Carter,
Yesterday, I had a rough morning. I kept going through those last few days with you in my head, and wishing that we could just go back to the times like these. I could feel those emotions building for a few days now, so it wasn't all that shocking to me when I just broke down and had a good cry.

It all stemmed from a dream I had of you the other night. I've been begging and BEGGING to dream of you, and now that I finally did, it wasn't in the way I had hoped. It was all about you being in the hospital...about those last few days. I felt myself getting on one of those waves of trying to figure out how in the heck I am supposed to survive in this world without you.

The good cry did a lot of good. I feel like that wave is over for now, and I feel refreshed and ready to go to work for you. I just want you to know how much I love you and miss you.

3 comments:

Rebekah said...

Sending hugs to you. Carter is such a sweet inspiration.

Colleen said...

Sometimes a good cry is just what we need. Hugs....can't wait to see what you do with Carters Hope.

wendy said...

tried to comment on this last night and it got 'stuck.' love you. wish i could just come over and cry with you for a bit. agreed that sometimes that's just what you need. do it as often as you need to. love you!